Hello Upper East Sider...er Toledoers, Blog Girl here,
Just kidding. The latter was a mere parody of bloggers who think of themselves as reincarnations of Kristen Bell since the advent of the show. Well, the Back Row Ballers are still on blog-iatus, tragically. I am withering away in North Carolina studying and having random aggressive, emotional outbursts aimed at foreign medical school graduates, NBME, and inexplicably Katie Holmes. So in short, I will not be back sharing sarcastic adventures for a while.
However, to tide blog readers over, I have found this so-bad-it's awesome blog via Gakwer: "socialite" Emily Brill's blog (her dad invented Court TV), a therapeutic exercise in narcissism (as I guess all blogs are) and self-aggrandizement and an obvious attempt to portray oneself as an up and coming "It" girl but with an "edge." Let the mocking of the disaffected, over-privileged Ivy League grads begin!
You know you love me, xoxo
--By Mariam, who seriously hates lysosomal storage diseases. HATES. THEM.
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I don't have time to look at the links within this blog, but I am happy to see that you are alive and blogging.
What a pleasant surprise!
It took me three tries to click on the right button to leave a comment. *sigh* only one week left.
i love your blog! do you have any tips on getting citizenship in the united states as a physician? i really care about surgery oncology, but of course i am flexible...lol :).
back in the day, jessey insisted on the abortion herself. I told her I would support either decision, because that is what a man says.
Her only concern was the cost, which was fortunately covered. we had been dating for quite some time.
she wasn't bothered by it at all. my old roommate might have not have approved, but she certainly did. she wasn't singing acappella in celebration or anything, but she confident with her decision.
so we both cried in my little apartment as it went on. they were not tears of sadness for losing a child, but regret for not using contraception. she was on the patch after that.
in any case...
we had troubled relationship from the start. she wound up at my place, in my bed, on the first night, after picking her up at a night club.
we dated for a long time. she flew to visit me from chicago, surprise visit me i should say. i stayed at her parents house. everything was consensual. in fact, we "frolicked" in her bedroom and basement while her parents were in earshot!
but i broke up with her. i cheated on her. she came to me, after walking from NORTH to my apartment, in the 3 foot snow. she wanted back, i gave in. over and over this happened. eventually, she decided that it was best to let go.
but then she saw me again...and i wont bore you with the rest.
MS said i should have done everything in my power to stop her from having an abortion. i did not agree. all you can do is support a decision. she loved me then, but didnt want my child. she hated me later, and she let me know. i paid dearly. i felt awful for so long. so much hurt and confusion, i just sunk away in a confusing mix of isolation and depression.
but life goes on.
i know the year off is part of everything. thats why its a risk, because when i go there it will be more of the same i imagine. or overbearingly difficult in order to discourage me from trying for something like that. in fact, after a year there, i wont have a good rec.
but i might still go. i dont have a personal life and i can still write.
i dont expect anyone to like me, or treat me fairly. its ok, seriously. i dont think "she's ok, when is she going to turn on me".
i just talk the same way normal people do. i lie just like normal people lie, feign interest like you do, and then pretend everything is dandy. even my "bit of luck" at getting offer from them is not luck.
when i have an oral exam or something, i expect to be grilled, expect you to throw out some personal information about me that will surprise me you have access too ("chamomille tea" or stuff like that). it bothered me in november, but i dont care anymore. read me my dialogue back, tell me bull means something from a chatroom or something. fbi me to the max.
i mean i know, its not a big deal. i even told my neighbor's their OB was excellent, even though the whole "i see you and you see me" stuff. its cool. i dont care.
you see my phone, you hear my calls, you tell my friends to tell me to take antidepressants.
the slut psychiatrist is surprised when i mention i have a gf, because she was sure i was going to hit on her and play single. i know, i know.
i know, no secrets. i mean, i was blatantly hitting on that high school girl. i honestly dont care. did you know i would going for the brunette?
if it takes this many people to hold me back from succeeding in something as difficult as neurosurgery, it is humbling. it takes a village to raise a child, and it takes three to destroy one.
anyway, we'll see how it all pans out.
i gotta get up early to drive back.
i am trying to be serious about school from now on, but feel free to discuss anything with me or point and laugh or something tommorrow. that goes for my new attending too, whom i was supposed to call but i didnt. i will be late, because i didnt do my presentation. it was actually mentioned, but i said it was not. just doing my job of being the awful person/student you work to make me.
i used to be depressed, but now? who cares, honestly? i better put credit to emed on my presentation. maybe one day i will have a full page of disclosures.
i'll bring this up "we ask you to write about any experiences/incidences you have had with this student" if i find my evaluator tommorrow.
for all the harassment, could you send another respiratory tech my way? can we have a brunette this time, as i am partial?
Seriously, why do people come up with this really weird ways to spam people when they could use their knowledge to do something more productive - like eliminating lysosomal storage diseases.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but the boards are over, right? Doesn't that mean you should be blogging again, or something? We miss you!
I agree with Erik! How'd they go btw?
The exam was really long, thanks for asking!!
I hope you're having fun in NC and I'm so sorry I can't be there to join in the fun with you guys!!!
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